Blog Post by Jennifer Perry
There was a period in my life that I spent in reflection, introspection and in reverence to what was going on inside my heart. At that time, my heart felt broken, my life was in conflict and turmoil, my insides felt heavy and burdened and I didn’t know what the word LOVE meant to me anymore. I knew that I Loved my children and would do anything to keep them healthy, vibrant and emotionally stable through this time of resolve in me. They were my True North in grounding me back to my path that I had detoured from. The heart path.
During this time, I let myself be, I let myself feel, I allowed every emotion to flood in. I spent 2 years feeling and meditating on one word. LOVE. In this allowing I discovered a connection to my intuitive nature a deep place inside that we all have access too. I allowed myself to connect to all the space around me without needing it to be different, without wanting it to feel different. I observed, and I processed and in that space, I began to emerge, I began to remember. I emerged connected to the trees around me, I emerged connected to the wind and to all living things above and below me. I observed how our collective conscious created weather patterns upon the planet and I began the next path of my inner journey remembering who I was, how I was deeply connected to all of this and what part “I” was here to nurture, grow and share.
I observed the patterns of individuals on social media, I observed others stepping into their own greatness, I observed the continuous cycle of drama in the world. I observed the addictive behavior that individuals, corporations, our political parties have to this drama, I observed where I played into that same cycle. I observed, and I processed. I observed, and I processed. I still do this. I discovered that drama causes trauma to the world. So, I continued to observe my own personality, my own character flaws and I began to Love them without judgment but as a Shakti as a witness, and in that space, it allowed me to develop a deeper integrity with my own actions. In this process I learned, I absorbed, and I blessed. I blessed every person I hurt in the past, I blessed every person I admired, I blessed my family, I blessed the planet, when the late hours of 3:00am awoke me I blessed some more, I blessed strangers on the street and in my blessing a wonderful thing started to occur. I began to heal from the inside out. I healed with teachers, I healed with energy, I healed with faith, I healed with Love.
As the fragmented pieces of my heart began to connect again through this process I was now able to listen. I began to tap into my guides, my ancestors, my angels in a deep compelling way. These were and still are my strongest teachers and guides in my path back to the light, back to my heart. They are with me now as I write, they give me the courage to continue to live from this place of trust and integrity and heart. They cheer me on, they tell me when to say no more; and as my dad said to me in his direct jolly manner, the first time I connected with him from the spirit side; after asking him what took so long for you to come? Tears of joy rolling down my face, he replied: “It is like a concert hall trying to get through them all, to talk to you.” They, these spirits, angels, teachers and guides are my concert and my choir, and they are with you too. I realized the quieter I became the more I could listen. They were with me all along, I just couldn’t hear them…. but now I do.
My heart continues to heal through my unwavering inner practice of meditation, yoga, and service, all of which I began without ever fully understanding the depth of these practices. These 3 vital tools have become the anchor to my heart, my soul. Without them, I would not know which step or action to take. They have changed my body, my spirit, my life. Each day is different but through the evolution of my inner garden (heart) I get to observe, process and continue to water the areas that need attention and Love. I get to share the joy that has emerged in my heart, the Love for all individuals has deepened to a place of non-duality and non-judgment because I see their angels, I see their guides I see their soul. In learning and observing my own heart I have compassion for where they are on their own personal soul journey. I get to experience great joy in watching humanity moving back into this heart space, this place of remembering.
To all of those moving back into your heart space, doing the work, no matter how hard or challenging it may seem. To all of those showing up to every moment with integrity, with introspection, with the courage to recognize your own individual heart and into your own remembering; I honor you. I honor your struggle, I honor your greatness and most of all I honor your light. Keep going, the joy and freedom is always on the other side of deep heart work and as the Native American Proverb says, “Listen to the Heart, it knows.”
In Love & Heart,