Blog post by Katie Scarsella.
I don’t remember the first time I felt fear, I just know it’s always been there. At times It has kept me safe, but sometimes that fear has come at a cost. Because when we live in fear, it prevents growth and change.
Throughout my years I’ve made attempts to co-exist with it. At times I’ve let it define me, I’ve tried ignoring it, even attempted self-medicating to release its grips. However those attempts simply enabled it to appear in new, more creative ways.
Recently, there has been a shift. I now see the time spent on my mat has forced me to spend time with myself, without the influence of others. My practice along with the introduction to mindfulness had changed the way I viewed fear. It unknowingly helped me face it, and in a way, befriend it. I continue to learn from embracing it’s loveliness and it’s ugliness.
In those moments when I can say, ‘I feel your presence, fear’ it grants me a great freedom. That freedom becomes my ability to choose its relevance. Do I listen to fear and turn back around? Or, will I attempt to do what feels impossible. Am I fearing the task? Or simply the responsibility that will come from breaking through another barrier.
May your fear give you the power to rise, not just the power to hide. The moments of greatest transformation occur when we let our light burn bright, even if the winds of change attempt to extinguish it.
“What is to give light must endure burning”. - Viktor Frankl